You know, a lot of things have scared me in my life, but nothing like this.
I’ve always been a student, I’ve always had something to do the next day or the next month.
But here I am.
This limbo I’m in after college is unreal.
Tomorrow I could get a phone call that will land me a job.
Or I couldn’t get one.
This is the first time in my entire life that I have nothing.
Don’t get me wrong. I have more than nothing- I have amazing family and friends.
I just graduated from college, I should be proud.
And I am.
But this terrifying ‘I have no idea where I am going’ feeling is the strongest and most paralyzing feeling I’ve ever felt.
Tomorrow may be the day.
Or maybe I’ll have to find a plan B.
Either way, this uncertainty is crippling.