I’ve always been someone who forgives, but second chances have always been hard. I have always given people that chance but it never really worked out. The person disappointed me or things were never the same again.
I gave someone a second chance too quickly and it turned out to be the biggest lesson I’ve ever learned in my life.
And here I am, years later, giving them another.
I decided there was no reason not to. The differences I’ve seen in my life over the past years are life changing. I believe that this could be the same for them.
I’ve decided to not look at it as a second chance, but to look at it as a new beginning.
I guess I just don’t get it. I don’t think I ever will. How is it possible to love someone and one day wake up realizing its not enough anymore? How is it possible to see your life with someone just to later fall out of love with them?
My mind changes all the time. I guess I’m naive to think that at 18, or 20, or even 22 that I could be in a point in my life that I could settle down and be happy with one person. I’ve had two beautiful, happy, and true loves. In both situations I was all in. Until slowly, quietly, I realized they weren’t the one for me.
Will it always happen like that? Will I always one day wake up and feel different?
I don’t understand how or why it happens. I guess over time you realize that person isn’t your person. They may have been your person for a while, but they aren’t anymore.
I’m afraid to ever get in another relationship because I don’t want this pattern to continue. I’ve never been very good at being single but I know its what I need.
I thought I was careful last time. We took it so slow at the beginning, I was careful because I didn’t want what happened to happen.
I don’t want it to ever happen again.
How can I change my mind so quickly and so concretely like that?
People are who they are and they want what they want. The only person who can change a person is themselves. Once you realize that, everything is much easier. You’ll stop wasting your time trying to change people and their opinions. You’ll stop getting in their business and giving them advice they never asked for. You have your values and beliefs, what if a friend came into your life and tried to change them? You wouldn’t be very happy. Every person is unique. They are who they are for many reasons. Don’t try to change that. Take them for who they are, not who you think they are or who you want them to be. They aren’t those things anyways. Don’t expect them to change themselves for you or for anyone but themselves. Take people as they are, broken, raw, unique, and beautiful.