Wow, its been so long since I’ve written. I’m blissfully happy in a relationship and quite frankly haven’t needed this blog to sort out my feelings. But I miss writing. I miss sitting down and having no idea what I’m going to say and just end up writing things I didn’t even know I felt. I want to make a come back.
This will probably be a whole lot different than how I wrote in the past. Getting over a break up and finding myself.
I am going to start my journey in the professional world. This time next week, I will have my first official day as a student teacher. Its probably the most exciting, nerve-wracking, incredible feeling I’ve ever had. I cannot believe its finally here. I’ve worked 3 1/2 years for this and its here. The beginning of my adult life is starting in a week.
“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” -Wayne Dyer
I think its crazy how different my life is now than it was just a few months ago. Oh how cliché I sound. I literally woke up one day and everything had changed. I used to be the homebody who sat in my dorm and studied. I would usually go home on the weekends, and when I didn’t I stayed in, most of the time by myself. I was happy in some aspects but my social life at school was almost non-existent except for my roommates. Now I’m always busy. I’m either studying, going to meetings, doing things for my clubs, or being with my friends. I still enjoy my alone time though. I am enjoying the usual college night life.
I am happy. I was happy then too. How is that possible? How is it possible that I’ve live two totally different lives and have been happy in each? I feel as if I was an entirely different person then, I don’t even recognize myself anymore. Not in a bad way though. I’m always talking about change, I’ve had a lot recently. I just find it incredible that I can lead two different lives and love both of them and what they have brought me.
I’ve made choices that I never would have even thought about before. I look at life in an entirely new light. A brighter light. I want something totally different out of life now. I’ve learned that happiness is not how you live your life, its how you feel about life. Everyday, you can choose to be happy.